what are you afraid of?

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Halloween just passed, and the general theme of halloween is the 'spooks', but more specifically, 'fear'. Halloween has always been something I've loved and wanted to get involved with (it's not very popular here down in Australia), except for one tiny aspect about the dark festivities... spiders. 

I'm terrified of spiders. I have arachnophobia and it's crippling. The one thing I hate the most about deviantArt, is the fact that every time I go to the Macro>Photography section, I have to spend the next 10-30 minutes recollecting myself and calming my paranoia because I've just had the biggest scare and adrenaline rush after seeing a zoom-in, macro shot of a spider's body. Even writing this makes me feel edgy and nervous. Seriously, am I the only one who goes through this? WHY IS THIS EVEN OKAY?!

So thinking about it a little more, spiders and insects are one form of my fears. But then it makes me think, what other fears do I have? What fears do YOU have? Not just phobias and what not, but insecurities about the world, about others, about yourself.


"What are you afraid of?"



Myself personally, I can say I'm afraid (?) of painting with acrylic, oils and larger pieces and bodies of work, I'm uncomfortable with painting landscapes and environments. 
What else? I'm afraid of letting people down. I'm afraid of becoming an adult and growing up. I'm afraid of failure and of the unknown. I'm afraid of being unhappy with where I am 'now', at any point in my life. 

There's so many different types of fears and insecurities that I've come to realize (besides from arachnophobia, which I've had for life?), and it makes me really think that it's about time I tackle these fears (I'm not tackling my arachnophobia, that's damn outright #fackthatville). 

So tell me, what are you afraid of?




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I dont think anyone will read this, but is actually surprisingly good to write up your fears, so I don't rlly care. And damn, what a long list! Anyways...
I'm afraid of:
- public presentations (argh)
- talking to strangers
- being criticised
- having people thinking i'm boring, not funny
- death (argh)
- kokroaches (am i spelling it right??). It's not REALLY fear, it's more disgust
- scary ghosts looking at you in the dark 
- having people not liking me for a reason I don't like myself to, AKA fearing that people will discover the not good stuff about me. Like, if somene doesn't like me for being overweight, being bi or anything else that I don't rlly care about, I won't get upset. But if someone doesn't like for me being to sensitive, shy, lazy or selfish, I will get upset, because I don't like this in myself
- knowing that i'm being a drama queen
- knowing that the only one who can help myself is me, cause I'm lazy and changing is hard :p
- not being a good person. Like, the world is so fucked up already, and I do nothing to help it so it isn't liek that
- being someone who ends up not being someone in life. Like, not about not discovering something great (like Einstein) or being famous, but seeing my life passing by in front of a computer, too lazy to do anything
- insects that "glue" to your skin when you touch them
- that the world will fall apart because of environment issues, world heating etc.
- being in a public, closed place and having people shooting everyone. Or being in abuilding with more people and with another people chasing us, like in terror movies.
- gigantic natural disasters
- my mom, my dad or my sister dying
- open ocean
- that no one will ever be my truly frind or love me in a romantic way. Because it's really hard for me to talk about my feelings.
I don't think anyone knows about most of that, because I don't usually talk about my fears to anyone. But, well, I guess most people are like that. And, also , it's a bit weird to post your deepest fears on a site, when no one knows about them. But I like it that way; no one here knows me, so it's less likely you'll judge me. I guess. Also, I think most people have a lot these fears too.